AX tomorrow~

Cosplaying Lavi. Finished making his lil' hammer this morning.

Julia's cosplaying Demyx. Her hair is gonna be a bitch to put up into her wig xD

Not sure when I'll be in full cosplay - maybe Thursday night. Maybe Friday. Possibly definitely Saturday. Probably not Sunday. Not sure yet.

Should be fun. Kimmi and Dave are sharing our hotel room, but they'll be off doing their own thing.

Julia and I will be throwing our little stuffed Nemo at other DGM and KH characters |D

I'm in a slightly better state of mind today. I still wish yesterday hadn't happened, though x_x

I'm angry about the ticket for several reasons, the main one being the money. In a close second is that I have to deal with the court and everything. It sucks and I'm pissed. Plus, I have to talk to my parents and let them know about it, since the information is being sent there. That's the worst of it.

On the bright side, yes, I'm glad Julia is here. I'm glad Our Year is starting. I'm glad life is working out semi-well.

We're still having some issues, though. Julia's computer is being stupid. We need somebody's Mac restart disks for OSX 10.5. I don't know where mine are, and Julia's dad won't send us his. I'm trying to get them off ebay at the moment, but if anybody has a set you're willing to lend us, we'd be ever so grateful and we'd ttly reimburse you for whatever shipping costs and whatnot ;; I just really want to get her computer fixed for her u.u

I'm kinda irked about the housesitting thing, but it'll help pay off the ticket, so I can't get to pissy about it.

Man. Stupid ticket... -grumbles-

I hate my luck.

Happy Birthday! Here's your second speeding ticket in two months.

Fuck.

Okay, things are going pretty smoothly.

We're moving into the house in Simi - I like the owner, I like the neighborhood, and we're not gonna find anybody else to house us for less than what she's offering.

I'm gradually moving my stuff into the space - I've got a small car and a lot of stuff @_@ The room is pretty small, but she's letting us use the extra queen bed and we've got free run of the house. I think we should be okay. We've got first month's rent paid. I've got three paychecks, plus money for house-sitting coming in before the next month is due. That should give us enough leeway to get some things to furnish the room a bit (mostly bookshelves and whatnot). I've got an idea, I just hope it works. And isn't too expensive.

I've still gotta ask her about hanging pictures...

I turn 21 on the 1st, but I still don't know what we're gonna do for a party. I think we can just hang out and go see a movie or something. Maybe Star Trek. Maybe Up. Dunno, tho.

( and now for some ranting! )

We're definitely going to Julia's for Christmas. I don't care what objections my parents may have to this. Julia's family likes me for who I am. And they're amused at my weakness to the cold.

I'm not sure if we'll stay for New Years or not. It depends on our jobs, I guess. The dorky part of me is happy that I've got somebody to kiss at midnight this year~ Among possibly other things.

We've got AX in July, nothing much in August, September 28th is our first year anniversary. October is Yaoi-con during Halloween. November is Thanksgiving, right? Then Christmas in December, and New Years to kick off January.

I'm not sure what's going on beyond that. February is Valentines (obvious where that's headed), March is St. Patty's, April is Easter... Not much left. I should be through with classes by December. And then we should be set to move again up to college.

God, it's not that far away...

Our Year is starting. We couldn't be happier.

Is kinda sucking right now.

I've been out of whack since Julia left. And so has the weather.

My phone fell behind my bed, I think. Which kinda ticks me off.

I'm at work early, because nobody could cover this shift. I've had no customers so far. And yes, the Open sign is up.

I registered for my classes last night for the summer and fall semesters. I added Pilates in the summer and Kick Boxing in the Fall. I'm hoping the exercise will help some things. I had to add another class this morning to round out my CSU requirements (I found the worksheet for that last night as well).

So, for the summer, I've got Bio Anth (still trying to raise that credit) Monday thru Thursday in the morning, Abnormal Psych (to make up the W/drop credit) Monday and Wednesday night, and the Pilates class Tuesday and Thursday night. It kinda sucks, but I need to get these things done. And we figured out that Julia can probably make use of the bus routes (though I'm buying her a can of pepperspray), so she can meet me at class at night. Not a big deal.

For Fall, I've got Gender Studies (making up a fail credit) Monday and Wednesday morning, and Kickboxing Monday and Wednesday night. Then I've got the English class (that I had to add for CSU) and the Relationship class (making up a low grade) Monday and Wednesday morning. So, all in all, not too bad.

The hope is that I can wrap this up with these two semesters, and I won't have to do anything for the Spring. I could maybe even snag some seasonal second jobs. I dunno.

Roommates.com has been a tad unhelpful. I've poked about ten people or so. Only one person's responded. Some chick in Simi - the house is off Cochran. I'm meeting with her on Sunday. It's an $800 rent for the both of us, but I think that'll be okay. She seems nice enough.

So, I think we're still looking at San Fran or San Jose. Not sure yet. That'll all get sorted out when Julia gets here.

Speaking of which, we may be moving earlier than expected. Depending on the circumstances, we may be moving as soon as mid-May. When I meet with the Simi chick on Sunday, I think we'll know more.

Things are running rather smoothly, I think, considering the circumstances. I still have to break the news to my parental units, but I think I'll do that when I know exactly what's going on. Possibly next week. Not sure yet. But still. We've got a plan, and it's working out rather well. Surprisingly enough.

Oh, right, AX. I may be cosplaying Guy in his bartender outfit, along with Lavi. It should be fun. I do need a dogtag, though. If I do, Julia said she'd cosplay Jade in his Doctor outfit |Db We need to lighten her hair, though...

Was woken up at 4 AM this morning to drop my parents off at the airport. They're leaving for Belize for a week.

I have work at 10 AM. I've eaten, haven't slept again, tho.

Julia got picked up in the van about 15~20 minutes ago. Her flight leaves at...1:15 her time.

She'll be landing here at 7:30 my time. Which means I'm driving back to the airport to pick her up. I think I'll take PCH, instead of the 405. Prettier ride that way. But it means I have to leave about 6-ish. I get off work at 5. That gives me enough time to get home and maybe snag some food or something. idk. I have to get on PCH from this way anyway.

Saturday night is just for us. Sunday, we're going out with Kimmi and Dave. Monday, we're hanging out with friends after class and then maybe going shoe-shopping for me (my current shoes are about 2 years old, I think, and there are holes in the toes, so my mom said she'd pay for new shoes). I dunno what we'll do at night... Tuesday, we're going to Magic Mountain =] Wednesday, I've gotta go to classes again, but we may be bumming with friends at the Getty if we know what's going on. Otherwise we may just screw around elsewhere. Doesn't matter. Thursday, I have work in the morning, and class at night. Dunno what we'll do between then. Friday, I have work again, and her flight leaves late at night... Upside is that crucen starts up that day, so at least we have something to look forward to.

Pics will end up on cylia_our_year, of course.

I joined College Board again last night so we could look at colleges. So far, San Fran SU and San Jose SU look like our best bets. I have to make another appointment with an admissions counselor in order to make sure I'm doing this right. Transfer admissions are on a rolling acceptance schedule, so I think we can get our applications in as soon as we're ready and we'll be fine for Fall of '10.

I've also been looking through Roommates.com, and I found a couple good places, so I messaged them, but I haven't heard anything back. Somebody keeps messaging me about a studio for rent at $1000 a month - we can't afford that. It would be nice if we could, but I don't want to be in a situation where I barely have enough money for anything after rent and car insurance payments and whatnot.

I still haven't told my parents what's going on.

I paid for my speeding ticket. I can take traffic school online, since I'm not a minor, and I have to pay for that, too. Not sure how much that costs quite yet. Stupid traffic cops.

Julia paid for half of Lavi's boots - it makes me so happy~ I'm gonna order the outfit next paycheck. I'll pick up the eyepatch from the costume store sometime next week, I think. I won't mess with my hair until the week before AX, so I don't need to worry about that. And then I think all I'll need to do is pick up some random shit to wear during casual days (I think we're only going to be in full costume for one of the days, two max. It'll be too warm for Julia to be in the coat the whole time.)

I really should be concentrating on my schoolwork...

I've got to review two stories - one is actually for class, the other was requested by one of my classmates (I'd missed the week where hers had gotten handed out and workshopped, so she asked me when I came back if I minded reviewing it for her). That's not so bad.

My speech is due the 15th, and I'm still struggling with the presentation of it. I know the material inside and out, but I can't organize it. It's hard to argue for a point when the opposition doesn't make any damn sense to you. If you don't like gay marriage, don't get one! Geeze... Either way, I need to get it done by next Wednesday at least, so I have time to memorize and practice it. I'm already down two points for not being ready last Wednesday - I can't really afford to lose any more for stupidity. I'm participating in the rebuttals as much as I can, which is good - that gives me more points. But still. I need to get a good grade in this.

My Religious Sites project is due the 16th. We're going to a place on the 10th, so that's half the project. I can maybe find another church to wander around before the 16th, but as long as I get the one done, I should be okay. I haven't missed the papers, and he's grading easy. As long as I get a C, I'm happy. I know I should be aiming higher, but I just can't be bothered.

So, Spring Break is going to be boring. Full of work and boring.

The next week is going to be awesome. Julia's flying in Saturday night (I'm driving to the airport twice that day - first early in the morning to drop my parents off for their flight to Belize, and then at night to pick Julia up). Sunday, I think we're hanging out with Kimmi and Dave (and possibly Jessica and her new boyfriend). I'm ditching Western Civ Monday so Julia and I can do whatever together after hanging out with my friends. Tuesday, we're going to Magic Mountain (fuck yeah!). Wednesday, we may be going to the Getty with Kimmi and Dave and Melissa and Cameron, but I'm not sure yet, because they don't know what time they're going, and I can't miss my classes that day. Thursday, depending on what I get done by then, I may skip class after work, or we'll skip out halfway through (I want Julia to see it, but it takes up most of the night, so...). And then Friday...eugh...

Pretty much, between April 17th and June 9th or so? I'm going to be ridiculously depressed. That overlaps my 21st birthday and I won't be able to enjoy it. What the fuck.

The internet is boring now...

Happy April Fools!

I'm wearing my "Do I DAZZLE You?" shirt.

That's not a joke.

Though I do hope some twitard comes into my store and sees it and asks if I like Twilight. I'll say "Of course! APRIL FOOLS."

I'm a dick.

I don't even know anymore.

I just want it to be June.

I hate my house, I hate my parents, I hate this idiotic monotony.

I hate internet curfews and hormones.

I hate not being able to get things right.

I hate screwing myself over.

I hate that we missed our six month anniversary.

I hate that I can't do anything for her birthday.

I hate that it's not June.

I hate that she's not here.

Fuck...

Okay, so, reason why you ttly wanna join cylia_our_year?

BECAUSE THERE'S EPIC VIDEOS OF US. THAT'S WHY.

They're in this post |Db

http://community.livejournal.com/rpg_promo/1191196.html

It burns, people. It really burns.

Doctor Who: a multi-layered, intellectual sci-fi show with solid plots and characters with depth.
Twilight: a poorly written piece of a housewife's wet fantasy with hastily compiled plots and characters whose only depth results in "chagrined" and "smoldering."

THE TWO SHALL NOT MIX.

Also, I love that you can make Twilight OCs.

I may go troll it a bit more. It's kinda fun.

Who wants to join me?

I remembered I had a Facebook. I kinda cleaned it up and everything, so if you wanna friend me, search for my email "cykotyks@aim.com" - I'm Cyrus B. Day xD

Julia and I are using it as a place to play games, and I decided to put up photos and stuff as well. So, I guess, if you wanna stalk me xD

In other news: I LEAVE TO GO SEE JULIA IN 5 HOURS

I think my boss has sort of adopted me now.

She asked me more questions about my trip in the span of 5 minutes than either of my parents have asked me in the three days they've known about this. Granted, it's only been my dad, and he tried to ask questions, but still.

I think I'm okay with Yvette acting as a mother. At least somebody knows what's going on.

And on that note, she's at least the fourth person to adopt me as a child of some sort.

What am I, a puppy? Don't answer that.

( It's a bunch of love quotes. Ignore if you don't wanna be drowned in sap. )

I think I'm done. Julia and I are being sappy at each other over IM...

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/08/15/AR2008081503099.html

You know what? No. I'm tired of this shit.

Feminism is not just the idea that girls can play like boys. It is the idea that women can do what they want without judgment. And on the same token, the idea that men can also do what they want without judgment. "Feminism" is a misnomer. Equalism would be better. Or, -gasp!- how about ~FREEDOM~?!

Either way, it's retarded. Bella is hyper-feminine, and Edward is hyper-masculine - don't you dare give me the "he plays piano and listens to classical music, so he must be sensitive" bullshit. He is abusive and controlling. Bella is weak and submissive. To make things worse, she is given an illusion that she's making the choice, when in reality, she's not. It's all in Edward's control. Even her very thoughts are focused solely around him. It's ridiculous and absurd.

Now, no, I'm not saying that women can't be like that. I don't necessarily care if a woman is genuinely happy being a doormat. I don't necessarily care if a man is genuinely happy being in control of things. What makes me unhappy is that the relationship is abusive and one-sided, and yet it passes as ideal. What the fuck? Bella's submissiveness is taken advantage of left and right. Edward's dominance is justified with flimsy excuses, which all boils down to "I'm the man, you're my bitch. I OWN YOU."

Also, I'm not saying that all women are strong people. But when you're writing a story? A fictional story about love? When you're reaching out to young teenage girls? Do society a favor and write a strong woman. Bella could be strong. You could have a very solid character in her, and you could have a very sensitive Edward, and you could still have a very beautiful romance story.

I'm tempted to seriously rewrite this, with a shy-and-awkward Edward, and a strong-yet-girly Bella.

And watch, it wouldn't get nearly the fanbase Twilight has. Because society is fucked. Feminism has taken a step backwards a generation wide...

Guess who got a speeding ticket?

I hate my life.

So, I'm eating lunch here. Got a salad from Whole Foods.

Nearly finished it. Found a dead ladybug in it.

I...lost my appetite....

There's only like two bites left.

But still...

I'm not fond of insects in my foods. Not when they're whole and...eeeeew.

/pansy?

So I'm getting a new binder. Makes me happy. I sized down this time, because I think I'm used to the constriction. It's a halfie-zip-up, so hopefully I'll be okay with wearing it in the summer.

So, I'll be seeing Julia in two weeks. Dave said he could probably take me to the airport Thursday night, which is awesome, and pick me up Sunday night, which is also awesome, but I'll probably be a mess. At least I won't feel that awkward being depressed around him. If it were my dad, I'd probably feel the need to act happy and shit, just to prove that nothing's wrong. I'm weird like that.

We also decided that we're not going to survive for two months without each other, so Julia's going to come over here in April, at the start of my Spring Break. We're planning on having her fly in Saturday night, so we have then, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday together, and she'll fly out Tuesday night. I can't have her stay any longer because I can't miss that much work, and paying for a hotel gets pricey after a bit.

It gets harder each time we see each other, I think. It's like a tease that just gets worse and worse... Ripping open a wound again and again and again. You'd think we'd get used to it, but no, it's just painful and useless and depressing. I'm just keeping my sights set on June, when she'll be here for good. It can't come soon enough. It needed to happen yesterday, it needed to happen months ago.

I think my parents have the internet on a timer now, so it shuts it off right at 1. I can probably fuck with it or something, but I can't be bothered. The problem, really though, is that because there's no internet, there's no reason for me to stay up, so I've been getting more sleep. But the dark circles under my eyes are getting worse, I think. It looks bad to me. It looks like I've been punched or something. I think I've managed to be the happiest depressed person in the world. Because I am happy. I've never been this happy in my life, except maybe when I was little and happy involved getting praise or candy. But I think I am really, truly happy right now, and I also think I'm really, truly depressed. My entire psyche hates the house I'm in now. It hates the situation, it hates the people, it hates it and it wants away from it, and because this routine is so ingrained into that very existence, there's just no other way to help it. I am so used to being depressed in that environment that I cannot be anything but. Not even when I'm the happiest I've ever been, because nothing inside that house has changed.

I cannot sleep well. I get too much, or too little, and in either situation, I just don't want to get up. I think it's just out of habit.

...I think I have habitual depression. Now that is a depressing thought.

I need to get off this train of thought. Seriously.

Okay, so I don't follow American Idol. But I've seen this guy pop up on f!secrets, and somebody on my f!list was talking about him.

Anyway: Because the paparazzi has nothing better to do.

Okay, first off, if you read the comments? Adam's already said that the other guy in the photos? (Who is the same guy in all of them) Is his boyfriend.

Problems I have with this "controversy"
1 - AOL called them "racy." What the hell?
2 - Put a chick in either of their places, and you've got no problem.
3 - Put chicks in both their places, and you've got no problem.
4 - I HATE AOL COMMENTERS BECAUSE THEY'RE IGNORANT, HATEFUL, HURTFUL LITTLE BASTARDS.

I think I'm gonna vote a million times for Adam now, JUST BECAUSE.

I don't even watch TV, let alone American Idol...